When I first started out writing this blog... I was sure I knew exactly what I would say each and every day.
I was going to be witty, timely, succinct, all encompassing and above all... entertaining, and I would get a book deal in days!
Yeah... Hi! I'm Saundra! Care to share my rosey colored glasses?
I started looking at other people's blogs and I couldn't believe my eyes!
There is a lot of real talent out there!
It kind of started to bum me out!
The more I lurked, the better everyone else's blog was. They had more poignant topics, more to say, more interesting kids (toddlers do so many more funny things than 13 yr olds.) The longer I spent surfing blogs, the more my confidence waned.
It was really weird to see so many other people have the same ideas as me, but truly wonderful so see their perspective on a topic.
I love to read... I love James Patterson, Janet Evanovich, John Grisham,Maya Angelou, Nicholas Sparks etc... and I would NEVER put myself in their eschalon of writing... they are masters of the written word, and I want to be just like them. Successful.
I want ridiculous amounts of money for writing my thoughts and stories. I want to be interviewed by Oprah and have one of my books be her "Book Club" pick. I want to go on book tours, meet other writers and have students "study" my book in college. Is that so much to ask? I mean... really!
Then I stopped myself and said... "Why are so bummed out? You are writing every single day. You are doing what you have been saying you wanted to do forever!"
So I snapped out of it!
I spoke to Letti a couple of weeks ago, and she is doing her blog to have a journal for future generations of her family to enjoy and know who Grandma Letti was.
Sounds good to me!
I have been going about this whole blog thing the wrong way! I think. Oh, I don't know!
I want it to be a creative outlet for me but I also want it to be a journal for my family too!
At the same time, I don't want to keep up with a bunch of blogs.
I like that this one takes up about 1/2 hour of my time a day.
I know, I know, I am rambling. This is how my brain works... all the freaking time!
I have paper all over my house, car, office, garage with notes about topics to write about, stuff about my family life, cool places I've been etc...
I have recently been OBSESSED with Thursday Thirteen topics, my stat counter, my page ranking from Google, and who visits my blog and how many subscribers I have.
And... I ...LOVE...IT!!!
Since January 4th, the day I started my blog, EVERYTHING is fodder for this blog.
So here is my answer to my own dilemma. WHY QUESTION IT?
If I enjoy it so much... does it really matter how many readers I have?
Does it really matter where the readers come from?
Does it really matter if they comment or lurk?
Does it really matter that they like what I post?
Does it? Does it?
I know it shouldn't... but it does!
I care if you like what you read!
I care if you comment!
I care if you came from Turkey or Israel!
I care about what I post!
Did you know that the day I posted my Political affiliation my readership dropped dramatically? Even though I am the same person I have always been, I lost a couple of readers.
So sad, in this day and age.
But I care.
Whew... I feel so much better having written that.
Mr Patterson, Mr. Grisham, Ms. Evanovich, Mr. Sparks, Ms. Angelou... if for some unknown reason you ever mistakenly read this little blog... I think you are the bees knees. I read you like a starving orphan. I lap up every word you write like water to a thirsty desert dweller. If you EVER have a class or hold court to teach, I am so in!
Ms. Oprah...Girl... I will be on your show one day.
I just hope it is for something good and not some ambush or debt probe.
Although I wouldn't mind if Nate Berkus re did my back yard...
Thanks for letting me vent.
I feel much better now.
Thanks for reading... truly. THANK YOU SO MUCH!
I am going to try my hand at stories in this blog too.
I hope you like em.