Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Writers Workshop 7-9-09

What am I paranoid about?
Paranoid is such an ugly word... I prefer the terms "insistent upon" or "don't appreciate when" or "really don't like it when".
Okay... paranoid it is.
Who am I kidding?
I am paranoid about fire. Fires. I hate them. No...not the firepit kind or the stove burner kind... but the blazing, smoke spewing, burning up houses and forest land kind.
I hate them.
I hate the people that start them.
All that carnage... for a cheap thrill of starting a fire.
It makes my heart bleed when I see peoples homes go up in flames on TV... and I live in So Cal, and fires are prevalent.
Paranoid... no... but get really, really pissed off and jittery when I hear about a possible arsonist...
I AM paranoid that my children will grow up, get married and never come to see me or think of me or call me again. I get afraid that they will not want to be around me when they are grown.
I'm trying to brainwash as much as I can, as fast as I can... lol!
I am paranoid that all the teaching, preaching, talking to, schooling, what have you... we do about them not trying drugs, or abusing alcohol, or doing anything that could harm them or others
will not be heeded by our sons... and I am paranoid that they will experiment and get hooked and go through all the terrible things other families have gone through.
I was once told, by someone my hubby is related to, that "Everyone has at least one drug addict in their family"... AND I REBUKE THAT STATEMENT WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING!
It was like she was wishing it on my family.
My brother, nor I has ever done, or tried drugs of any kind... so... no... it ISN'T in every family.
And... I'm certainly never going to try, do, or talk about drugs and alcohol like it's cool, with my kids... ever. So far... so good, but I won't have control soon...and I don't want them making the wrong choices... and it's so hard being out of control, when I am a control freak of a mother to begin with. I just want my men to have good, clean, wonderful lives, full of laughter and children, and great wives, and... and... and... you catch my drift...
Oh... and one more thing...
They should only EVER been shoes or belts or bags.
Those... I am paranoid about... to the nth degree.


  1. Wow I agree with so much of what you wrote. The fires, the drugs bit too. Really great post this week, as is every week... Come on out to my farm and you can see some snakes, I hate them too....

  2. A little paranoia goes a long way! ;-)
    I don't hate snakes, but I am scared to death of them, even harmless ones: one never knows for sure ...

    I grew up with six brothers.
    I was the oldest.
    And the boss. ;-)

  3. Everyone has a drug addict in their family? That's an interesting statement. I got a problem with that one, too. The trouble i often see is people who don't impose any rules on or have an expectations until their kids are 14 and then all hell breaks lose. Sorry, folks, it's too late by then. They are who they are.

    Snakes aren't so bad as long as they don't sneak up on me.

    Cool post.

  4. Great post. I am paranoid of the same things. What do they say, "Paranoia strikes deep..." My paranoia is so bad that I drive those around me crazy. My worst fears are fire, drowning, home invasion/burglary, car wreck, all the major ones. Example: when we are leaving the house, I have to ask my husband five times if the garage door was shut and that I unplugged the coffee maker or toaster. My paranoia has enabled my OCD. I didn't write a post about it b/c I was afraid of what people would comment. Sorry for the long comment. Have a wonderful day and take care.

  5. Do you think the person meant one drug addict somewhere in the family like a cousin or an aunt or something? I would think that might be true. Who knows. I hate snakes too! They creep me out like nobody's business : )

  6. I don't think I believe that EVERY family has a drug addict memmber. I don't think I can name one person in my family that is a drug addict, though I do have quite a few alcoholics in my family (including my older brother) but as far as I know, no one is big on drugs. Though is could be argued that alcohol is a drug.

    Just visiting from Mama Kat's (I usually do every week but this is probably the first time I've commented).

  7. I think living in So Cal my whole life makes me paranoid of Fire, I've seen it come right to my front door. I pray I NEVER see that again! So I agree with you there....snakes I can handle, it's spiders that are the WORST!

  8. Ah yes, that lovely paranoia!! I'm totally with you on all that! ;) and I'm a total paranoid freak ;)

  9. I didn't write about the paranoid thing because I'd still be writing! JK! I'm not so paranoid as I am OCD, which is more of a comfort thing than fear-based. Ok, TMI, sorry! Have a great day and see you at the ballpark!

  10. When I started reading your paranoia about fire I wondered if you live in So Cal. My family lives there too. How could you not be paranoid about that?

    Unfortunately, I do have a drug addict in my family and I see no reason why there should be one in every family. I wholeheartedly reject the idea that there is one in every family and I look forward to a time when drug addiction is a rare thing.

    You keep doing what you are doing with your family. You've given them a sturdy foundation now trust.

  11. Isn't it the give your all: your love, your heart, and every ounce of everything that you have to help your kids not fall into traps, to be successful and happy. Still, with all the teaching and loving, some still fall prey to the world. Just do your best, Mom. And try to relax, as hard as that is for all of us in today's world.
    And, I am soooo in agreement on the snake thing!

  12. LOL... I can often be a control freak too. At least that's what Daddy tells me. :-)

  13. Throw in some drowning and you hit all of my big fears. That and being featured on What not to Wear...which would really piss me off.

  14. I'm paranoid that my kids will NEVER leave. Gee, can you guess MY mood tonight?!

  15. Wait, maybe I do have paranoia put a new spin on it!

    I don't think you'll have to worry about the boys never visiting!

  16. Oh my gosh. Every time I come to your site I think "we are the same person" and this is no exception. I guess it runs in the italian/socal blood.


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